Eek. Big changes in life are scary. This week I became a student again and embarked on a totally different career path than the one I expected to be on.
You probably have experienced exactly how I feel this week. Have you ever been in that limbo stage of anticipating a big change in your life – whether it is moving location, getting married, having a kid, changing jobs – and the anticipation and anxiety builds so much that when the change finally comes you feel huge relief? I’m definitely feeling that relief this week, alongside that kind of empty blank-canvas future kind of feeling that makes you feel unsettled and vulnerable.
To cut to the chase a little, I am studying to become a Spanish Secondary Teacher. The part above about this career path being unexpected for me is both true and untrue. True because I said for a long time that I didn’t want to be a teacher because it seemed too “obvious” (I am sure I’ll expand on this in a later post). Untrue because the joy of education and teaching has been a constant thread in my life. Essentially, I now have a feeling that all notions of where I want to be professionally are simultaneously falling apart and falling into place at the same time.
So far, my first week on the teaching course (PGDE) has been really positive and has sparked a lot of reflection that I’m suddenly keen to write down and share. These musings may be of interest to fellow or prospective students, educators, or those having similar reflections on their own life or careers. More so really, I thought it would be interesting to look back on my thoughts and feelings over the course of this journey. I am quite the avid scrapbooker (or hoarder some might say) and I love to look back on my memories and progress. So for now this blog is going to be my little teaching scrapbook that I can hopefully fill with new insights, stories, and points of discussion. I know there are so many people out there with a wealth of knowledge I can draw upon, so this may be a way to open up that discussion, who knows? As such, please feel free to comment on this or future posts – it would be much appreciated!
I hope to write regularly, so I will hopefully have some more to say by the end of the week or start of next. For now, I’m away to do the three hours reading for one seminar! Eek!
Linggow 